The thoughts of an object-like being....
My new life is so different. I was declared their servant, so
I might as well try to be a good one and be queen-like to the best that I can. It
was decided for me without my say or opinions. I decided to go along with my
brother’s plan, even though I truly am not happy. I am now Hrothgar’s wife. I
decided to approach everyone in a calm manner and be as respectful as possible.
I am trying to be humble and to respect my new lord. I am adapting, well sort
of. I secretly miss my family, but I know I have to continue for the good of my
people. I will treat Hrothgar’s people as my own. However, I am lonely. I am
nostalgic for my past and I miss my old life. I am sad, sort of depressed but I
dare not show my true self. My real feelings would only create trouble, which I
cannot currently handle. I try to find time where I can ponder and truly think
about my situation, but I am never alone. I am always the subject, of affection
and of possession. I simply clutch my true feelings close to my heart and
continue on in my silent misery.
I have moments where I think I am happy; I am happy, but sad.
Can I ever be truly happy? I am not even appreciated. You would think they act
to one another as if I am there precious treasure, but I do not feel as though
that is the truth I am acknowledged only when need be and I am not respected
the way I would like. Well I guess life is not perfect and I will continue to
smile and hid myself.
Why does Grendel hate me? If he is trying to prove a point to
my new lord why is he taking his blame out on me? I am scared and I cannot hide
my emotions. Please, protect me, someone, please. I am alone with this monster
and defenseless. Anyone, someone, will you help me? Finally, I was freed, but
no thanks to them. They pretended to be so happy I was okay, but really they
did not care about me, but their “treasure” was secure. I am nothing more but
an object of possession and not a being with feelings. Without me the kingdom
would fall apart.
I liked this! You took a pretty cynical route with this monologue, but it fits the story. You exposed the underlying emotions, something I think isn't very evident in the actual story.
ReplyDeleteI like your insight into Wleatheow inner thoughts and how she feels about being there. Good job you sure the whole range of emotions she is going through.
ReplyDelete"I simply clutch my true feelings close to my heart and continue on in my silent misery."
ReplyDeleteI love this line! Your internal monologue for Wealtheow is really similar to mine in the sense that it shows that even though she's not truly happy, she's still trying her best to be the "ideal woman." I really liked it...good job! :)
The idea of being the best queen she can be despite having no say or choice in her life is a good insight into her character. A good post, and a good blog so far this semester. Keep it up.
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